one shot...

one apportinity

to finally dissapear

i can eaither vanish from everyone around me

or stay n get betrayed 

my mind saids dissapear

my heart saids to stay around

....

this is my december

this is my time of the year

this is my snow covered home

this is me alone

and i

just wished i didnt feel that there was something i missed

and i take back what i said to make u feel like that

take back all the things i said to you

and i give it all away just to have some where to go to

give it all away to have some one to come home to.....

this is my snow covered dreams

this is all i need

this is my december....

and this is all so clear!....

saying goodbye.

saying hello

staying here

dissapearing here

is my mind made up

or is my mind waiting for my heart to give in

....

saying goodbye to everyone

goodbye my friends

goodbye my family

goodbye my love

goodbye my ol life

i thought i have it all figured out 

heh i guess not

im just gona get my stuff and just leave

death is not the option 

but dissapearing without a treace is

and who knows i might be that one stranger

with a blue or perhaps green

and will get reconised by someone on here or one of my friends in the future

.....

i love my friends and family

i love sammy with all my heart

my heart is telling me to stay

and yet i dont know if i should follow it

am i afraid is that it

do i really want to say good bye

no i dont

am i going to be forgotten

man i hope not

have time reached to me

is this why im like this

no it hasn't 

i cant think like i used to

mikey knows that well

again i got one shot at this

and that shot is today

i eaither vanish

or

stay around a lil longer

all i need to do

is make one phone call

and i will vanish from history and will rise in the future

i might be 30 i miht be 40

who knows i might be dead

heh dead thats funny

i always get away from it 

but enough of that

this is one shot

most of you are gona say just stay dont be stupid

i dont predict the future but plan the future

untill then say it now cause if this is my time leaving

then it will be the last time hearing me.

one shot

one apportnity 

if i gain it

i might let it slide

but if i hear whining

then maybe im gone for good

so good....